For the past couple of weeks, I haven’t been feeling my best, but I’ve been ignoring the signs because I do not have time to be sick; so I do the best to pretend nothing is wrong in hopes that sickness will go on its merry way. There is so much I want to accomplish and being sick keeps me from getting things done.
Being a single mom, I truly do not have time for sickness. I’m the one who needs to always have it together. I’m the mom, not the child. Even though I have been struggling to breathe the past week or so, I made it to my woman’s book group Friday night. I absolutely love my book group, as it is one of the highlights of my month. I thought I could put on enough make up and if my daughter curled my hair for me, I would be able to make an appearance and no one would know I wasn’t feeling well. It appeared I had succeeded until Malissa, a student I used to advise, walked up to me at the restaurant we were at. She said she felt I needed something, and she handed me the most beautiful amethyst. Purple is my favorite color, so I thought that’s why she had brought it to me. However, she said it actually represented healing and she sensed I needed that.
I started to tear up. What a thoughtful gesture; however, I never told anyone I wasn’t feeling well. Malissa is one of the kindest souls I know, and I know she will go on to be an amazing fashion designer, so I cherish the moments we have. That was one of the hardest parts when working with college students, they only come into your life for a brief time, but watching them grow into happy, independent adults has always been a blessing. I made the above photo as a thank you to Malissa and her intuitive kindness.
I wish I could say that I have improved, but as I write this, I’m actually waiting for my daughter to come home so I can go to the hospital. Nevertheless, the amethyst has brought me peace of mind. When I was creating the photograph, I searched up what an amethyst stood for. Healing was one, but it also stands for power, protection, and wisdom. Maybe I needed the amethyst to protect me until I wised up and realized I needed medicine to get well. I need to remember that even moms get sick, and that sometimes I need to delegate and say no. Everything I need to accomplish will still be there tomorrow. Maybe while I’m recuperating, someone can figure out a way to clone moms, then I can sometimes take a nap without the guilt.
One last note, I made homemade chicken noodle soup in the crock pot this morning, so I have that to look forward to when I get home. Nothing is better for pneumonia than a beautiful amethyst, homemade chicken noodle soup, and hugs from my kids. Also, a little prednisone and a much needed Z-pak wouldn’t hurt either.
JustJamie 
Aww, the amethyst is beautiful, and so is Malissa’s soul! I’m sorry you’re sick, but I hope you got some good meds and are on the mend! Feel better! ❤
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Thank you so much. It’s taken a couple weeks to recover, but we spent the weekend on the beach and the air really helped speed up the process finally. Plus a walk on the beach with my kids is always good for the soul.
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Oh, I’m so glad you’re feeling better. 🙂 Yes, the beach always helps! 😉
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Be careful with the steriods, please. I am an RN and although no longer working, know how many side effects steriods have and how tough they are on the body. There are better ways to heal the chest other then this method. I will be praying for you. Love, Amy
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Thank you for your post and your words of wisdom. I actually had a bad reaction to the prednisone and wouldn’t have followed up if I had not have read your post. I am much better now thankfully. I had never been this ill, so it was hard to realize I wasn’t infallible after all. I appreciate your kind words and prayers.
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Jamie, I am deeply touched you “heard” my words. Medicine is too aggressive and harsh on the human body/psyche which I have known for too many years. I understand what it is like to be very ill, and very scared. There was a time in my life I relied on doctors to heal me, yet out of that circucumstance I learned to be very wary, to question everything, and to think twice before I put a medication in my body. I’ve studied/am studying alterantive medicines which presently I am applying what I do know to both myself and husband, and to our cats. We have the attention of Vet medicine due to what we are proving with our special needs cats, yet there too, I admit, it’s a very small dent in the wall. I am very glad you are feeling better. Once you loose your health it is so not easy to regain it. I am a firm believer in preventative care. Good nutrition, good exercise, good living, and staying away from doctors as best I can. I’ve just been through a nightmare with knowing how brutally treated my Dad was by medicine, and how medicine pushed him to his death. I lived hundreds of miles away while all this was happening, and those in my family who were in “charge” of my Dad’s care, trusted doctors and would not listen to me. Another example from my own life how we all need to educate ourselves on how best to take care of us. (((HUGS))) Amy
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